Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Goals...

We have changed so much since I was last actively posting here. The baby isn't a baby anymore and Wy is a little man-child. We are blessed with strong healthy babes and just keep growing and changing. We took a week long spring Break to Arizona in late March. The kids did really well on the plane and aside from some moments of entitlement that nearly brought me to my knees, we had a wonderful time. I know I am raising these people different than I was raised, but I struggle from time to time with them not understanding how lucky they are. Is there a way for them to appreciate that it is a gift to be able to travel by airplane and go and stay away from home in a resort for a week? I mean I know there are ways, but the teaching moments aren't apparent to me until I am saying icky things about not EVEYONE being able to do these things. I don't want them to feel lucky as the sake of someone else. I also don't want monster melts downs about not getting this or that. Being a mom in the moment and finding teaching opportunities in everyday moments without losing my cool will forever be one of my biggest goals. I pray about it all the time! Peace and grace, peace and grace. What are some of your parenting goals with your growing family?

Healthful Changes...

Will I ever get it right? I think it is a matter of a total change of thinking and those don't come easily. Life is full of choices and I fall into the habit of feeling like a deserve awards for having to deal with unpleasant situations or treats to help soothe the hurts of everyday life. It's been a life-long (or at least throughout adulthood) choice I make to cope. It isn't working. I am not a well-balanced human based on these choices. I am heavy, and by heavy I mean freaking fat. I have stood at this juncture more than once in the past and nothing has worked. I am still making the same choices and still feeling poorly about myself. It's time to understand that patience and discipline are the only way to effect change in the ways that I need to. Ugh! But here are the promises I am going to make for myself... * I am not going to be disparaging to myself about the length of time it takes. * I am not going to reward myself with food or things! I am going to just be proud of ME! * I am not going to make these choices I am making the center of conversations. * When I fall down, I am going to get back up and try harder. I embark on this journey with the knowledge that I will be happier in the long run.